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Chapter 5 - Beyond SexIt was on the fourth day in the morning, right after breakfast that I felt impelled to make a speech. The breakfast dishes were still on the table. Also I made it clear to everyone that this was going to be a formal speech with the tape recorder running, and all that. I opened the speech by saying that I had been pleasantly surprised by what had happened so far, and this not so much by what had actually occurred, but more so by what had not occurred. For example, nobody had raised the question why it was, that while we were engaged in a high priority emergency mission for the rescuing of humanity, paid for by the Federal Government of the United States of America, we were sitting on a beach in a South Sea island paradise, talking about sex. I suggested that a government auditor would have quite a few questions about what we were doing to fulfill our objective. "So, are we fulfilling our mandate?" I asked. "How would we answer this question for an auditor? Indeed, what proof would we give? Do we have any proof at all that what is happening here is worth mentioning?" "I think we have this proof," I answered my own question, "and a part of that proof is found in another 'occurrence' that did not happen, which is that Anton has not been invited. Of course I had nothing to do with that. That was Fred's decision. Still, I would have made the same decision, and that proves why we are here." In order to make any sense of what I had said, I had to go back in time, more than a dozen years, to the time I met Anton. That happened in Moscow during a peace conference. I related to everyone how I fell in love with Anton almost at first sight, and also that Anton had a huge problem with that, having been sexually abused as a child. I explained that she had been so terribly abused that every man who found her attractive as a woman repulsed her. I explained that Ushi and I had lengthy discussions about what we could do to rescue her from her warfare against herself. She practically hated to be a woman, even though deep down from the bottom of her Soul she wanted to embrace herself as a woman. That was evident in the tastefully feminine manner in which she dressed. I explained later that the gulf between us became so deep in the end that we could only communicate by letter. "That tiny opening the letter-writing presented," I said, "still proved to be big enough to introduce an idea that helped her to raise her self-perception to a higher level. She acknowledged in her own letter in reply as we were leaving, that a shift had begun in her thinking. Nevertheless it took her all those years before she could face me again. That finally happened in Caracas." I described that what happened in Caracas was something akin to a sexual 'explosion,' a dream having come true, which however gave rise near the end to the momentous question, "where do we go from here?" I explained in my speech that Erica and her friend, who arrived just in time, provided the answer to that question. From the moment that Erica arrived on the scene, the entire scene became uplifted. She never denied the sexual element of course. She merely pushed it to the side in order to explore yet another rich dimension of our humanity that had been neglected. I explained that I still loved Erica deeply from a sexual standpoint, especially since we hadn't seen each other for many years. "After all, she's a woman and is proud to be that." I pointed out that we embraced each other many times from that standpoint and then stepped aside into another rich realm. "With her wide-ranging scientific knowledge she had raised the whole human scene almost instantly to a higher level in a realm that had been neglected. She focused broadly on the future of humanity in terms of its physical potential. She was in love with the potential of our humanity to create a richer and brighter world beyond anything that has ever been imagined before, even by science fiction writers. As far as I can remember she has always been like that," I said proudly. || - page index - || - chapter index - || - Exit - ||
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