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Ushi nodded. "It appears that all the hype about the physical sexual intimacies doesn't measure up to the least of these aspects," she said, "and yet we need the physical aspects just as much. We can't give them up. This seems to indicate to me that sexual intimacy really isn't a physical thing at all, but is primarily a spiritual thing with a physical expression, a thing of our humanity, so that when it is blocked, there is something spiritually lacking."
"Right, Peter, who would want to give this up then, and what for? And that's exactly the point. The point is, that while sex is an integral element of our humanity, it is just one of many."
She paused, as if searching for words. "Tell me," she continued, "what was the first thing that impressed you about Sylvia, which made you want to be with her, always? Was it sex?"
I had to laugh. "No it wasn't sex. There was a sparkle in her looks, and gentleness in her manners, a caring in her heart. Oh, and could she sing! If you had heard her sing that wonderful duet from Samson and Delilah, you would have fallen in love with her, too. Sure, sex was intertwined with all that. She is a beautifully sexy woman. But was sex the key factor? It was at times, but not the decisive factor. There were many sexy women in our office, but Sylvia was from a different world as it were."
"Why didn't you latch onto those other sexy women, Peter, before you met Sylvia? Why didn't you take them for lunch."
"It never occurred to me," I replied. "Sex simply isn't the all-important factor that pushes everything else into the background, but whatever Sylvia brought to the table was so strongly in the foreground that nothing else seemed to matter. Love was the driving force. Sex came with the package, and nicely so, but it was the package that mattered. It was the same with Heather, and it was the same with you and still is."
Ushi began to laugh. "Do you realize how crazy the world has become? Do you realize that the deepest division and isolation between people that has ever been created, the sexual division and isolation, is built on an element of our humanity that hardly measures up to anything of any great importance? And yet, it divides us all. Still, we need it as a part of the package, as you have put it. I have a feeling that we don't recognize its full dimension yet. We have been taught to shun sex for centuries, to regard it as something dirty, to see it as an animal propensity. I don't think we have seen it yet as a uniquely spiritual human element that no other form of life can match, which may be comparable only to art and music or literature. It appears to be a unique form of self-awareness and communication with which we enrich one-another. I think it is something like that."
Here I had to laugh too. "Sex appears to be only the key element when it comes to dividing and isolating people. Suddenly sex overshadows everything," I said to Ushi. "We get into this even though we barely understand its real dimension. We may be fighting an element of the Principle of Universal Love that is fundamental to our being, and put ourselves at war against an element that is anchored in our Soul. Maybe sex was the only deeply rooted element that the oligarchy could find in ancient times with the potential for dividing humanity."
"Why don't you tell Sylvia what you just said?" Ushi interrupted me. "But you've got to be honest about it."
"That should be easy," I said.
"Oh, would it be?" said Ushi and smiled. "Ask yourself what would happen if Sylvia came to embrace celibacy or became a lesbian to the degree that this would exclude all sexual contact with you, how would you react?"
"I'd help her to fulfill her new needs whatever they might be, wouldn't I? I certainly would, Ushi. We are not one-another's keeper, or one-another's slave, but one-another's lover, and that still means that we enrich one-another's existence no matter what the specifics may involve. The bottom line is, I would have to say to myself then, what has sex got to do with any of that? Not much, really. It wouldn't alter my fascination with Sylvia, and my fascination with sex, and my embrace of our humanity in the boundless dimension of universal love where all human needs are met."
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