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I felt feelings when I was with Odessa that I had never felt before. It was as if I had never known the depth of my own being. To be with her was like taking part in something that we, in the conventional world, had never known or even dreamed of before. Indeed, how can one possibly define a love that is but a reflection of a unity with oneself, an acceptance of oneself, defined in a world in which separation has no meaning? People always say that this can't be done, for it exists in a world that most people reject as invalid, especially people like our captain who would never ever be able to understand his humanity, looked in his house without even the smallest windows. In the world that existed on Bohr's planet the windows were huge, love and unity became one. What a privilege it was to experience that reality, to be there, and especially so the priviledge to experience that reality with someone like Odessa.
In this gentle night that we shared sex was not for gaining anything, but for enriching one-another which appeared to be the only valid platform for true riches. There was never the faintest thought in her presence about stealing a kiss, a hug, or anything else. I felt more an urgency to step back; to let the reality unfold that was embracing us all in which we found the so-long unseen starlight of our humanity.
In this night of sharing, or more correctly, of being one, the wine of the feast was love, the candlelight romance, the appetizer sex, so that everything, which followed, was beyond anything that words can convey. Nor did we need words. There existed no gulf to be bridged over, for which words would be needed.
An orange moon appeared on the horizon at dawn after midnight, surrounded by a turquoise sky. Though the sky never became totally dark after it had turned a deep cobalt blue, it was of such clarity so as not to blot out the stars. The rising of the moon didn't overpower the starlight, except in the areas of the brighter turquoise. The stars seemed important to Odessa. They seemed intertwined with our love as both reflected the principles that manifested the Spirit of the universe. I began to appreciate gradually why the bedroom had to be a room without a ceiling and roof, a room that was open to the universe as much as this could be arranged.
The orange moon only added to this perception. The shapes of the sculptures in the room projected dark blue shadows on the wall beside me. I could also hear the flow of the river and the sound of the wind in the trees beside the house. I could even smell the fragrance of their flowers. Then the thought dawned that it would be pleasant in the morning light if we would swim among the pedals of their flowers that the trees shed liberally into the water, probably to make room for new blossoms. Life was so incredibly profusely rich on this planet that the riches of the richer love unfolding didn't seem to be out of place at all. I didn't dare sleep so as not to miss anything, since those riches were profusely reflected in the way our night had unfolded.
Our time together, though time was invalid as I was beginning to sense, had become a rich unfolding of generosity, warmth, and affection, of an intensity that could brighten ones soul for weeks and months to come, perhaps years. Hasn't it been said that in the presence of such riches a single moment is like a thousand years? I felt that night like I were already swimming among the rose pedals that fell so easily into her favorite lake, a profusion of riches to shower the moment that would last a thousand years. Those moments seemed to have no boundary in this land of boundless unity.
The poetry of that night of our own making, of course was helped the loveliness that surrounded us. And both appeared as rich as our bodies appeared in the beauty of our multifaceted, boundless embrace that unfolded constantly in the environment of that one common universal Soul that colored all beauty and life, that we turned into a new form of poetry that exists without words.
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